Accepting Life As It Is

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I have had difficulty accepting what has happened to my life.  I think my wife and my sister feel the same.  

Life throws many difficulties at us.  Difficulties come in different ways.  Simply, it may be something small like loved ones and their habits, quirks, or behavior.  Our natural tendency as human beings is to try to or attempt to change what we don’t like about someone, which often over time leads to resentment. Nonetheless, given the individuals importance and presence in our life, we usually make an effort to accept them as they are.

Acceptance is a large task, accepting someone for who they are and not attempting to change them is and can be hard.  I always equated acceptance with surrender and excused bad behavior with being weak. I was taught that as humans we have the power to change people’s ingrained ways.  Years later, I have learnt that true acceptance has nothing to do with surrender, backing down or even condoning bad behavior.  I have learnt that true acceptance means accepting people and things as they are without judgment or harboring negative feelings such as fear, anger, or resentment. 

True acceptance is simply the “how is” and “what is” of the person or situation.  Learning this helped me accept people I dislike as they are.  

Acceptance to me has been vital.  Acceptance recently of my condition and acceptance of others.  Acceptance induces a critical shift in focus from what I was powerless to change or do to what I now know I can do to better help myself.  Accepting what is has allowed me to discover what might be.  


Acceptance has been a stress and anxiety reducer for me.  Accepting people and things as they are has meant I have little to stress and lose sleep over.  

Certain people in my life, I am struggling with and some situations have become challenging for me.  My anger and resentment has obstructed acceptance and has even exacerbated the situation which has therefore become more hurtful and damaging.  

Carrie Fisher once said that “Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” 

Moving forward I am trying to; 


Process my fear and anger.


Not take what anyone does personally.


Recognize my fears and anxieties           


To try not assume that everyone has an intent to harm me.


Trust that I will be able to take care of myself.


Remain true to myself always. 

I feel less annoyed, more grounded, and more focused and it's still very early days. 

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