My Wife....

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My wife is my rock, she makes me feel safe, supported and loved.  At our wedding in my speech, I ensured everyone in the room knew just how important she is too me.

I believe in true love and she is my true love. True love knows no depth and our relationship will continue forever.  I know it's true love as I have never felt this way before and that's how I know this is genuine, also I am happy to turn her socks round the correct way still after all these years!
Our relationship works because both of us have given to this relationship wholeheartedly.
Just watching her laugh or smile, or seeing how happy she is when she is getting ready to go out on her bike, it makes me feel intensely happy even if I am feeling absolutely shit.
Throughout our relationship so far, I think she would agree if with me when I say we have both made sacrifices for each other to enhance each others happiness and wellbeing.  

We have been together for 17 years and got married last May.  We have learnt and grown together,  we trust each other and have open communication and we try not to demand too much from each other all the time.
She knew me before this condition, before the chest line and the constant pain.  Before this condition we had been together 10yrs, shared various homes, travelled, owned many flash cars and she had various high flying jobs.  We had lived in Spain and obviously came back.  We have supported each other through think and thin.
My wife has always been incredibly supportive of everything that is important to me, in 2009, for example she supported me to have a year off and play golf to get ready for my captaincy.
She is my voice of reason, my anchor, my go to.  When we first met I needed someone who would inspire me to be the best person I could be and over the years she has done exactly that. 
She is my support network, a supportive partner isn't someone who hangs on your every word and does what ever you want or follows you like a lap dog. I know I am truly loved and supported because she supports me, she challenges me, stands beside me when I need her, and she has given me the space I have needed to roam free and grow as a person.
She never judges me or puts constraints on my mind, my physical body, or any of my dreams even if they are crazy. I know she would go to the other side of the world for me if I needed her too. 
Even through her various jobs in the years we have been together, whenever I have needed her, for the things that really mattered like work meetings or appointments she has always been there regardless.  In the early days of me being poorly she would travel by train 3/4 times a week to ensure I had company in Kings.  She cleans and dresses my chest line area, she is learning to flush and lock the lines to ensure everything is done at home and feels like a normal part of our life, not everyone would be able to do this for someone. 

Most of all, she sees me, the real me, not the cloaked me.  She sees what other people can’t,  all my beauty and grace, all my hopes and my fears,  aswell as my darkness and faults.
She sees me for the person I am now and the amazing one she knows I am truly capable of becoming again, even if I can’t quite see this myself yet.
Above all else, she loves me. Unconditionally. And to me that’s really all that matters in this life.
Instead of forcing me, she allowed me to work through my shit and become responsible for my own feelings and my own happiness meaning that we would be happier together. 

She is faithful, honest and kind.  I can be who I want to be and say things I want to say with no filter because she truly loves me.  When I sit and think about our future, I know my wife will still be at my side.  




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  1. UnknownMonday, 17 July 2017 at 23:00:00 BST

    Lovely post but make sure she doesn't read this or her head will get far too big ;) x - Daniel

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