Diagnosis

Everything was great in my world, it wasn't perfect but overall things were going to plan.  Then something happened.

I became ill. 

It wasn't fair, I didn't deserve it.  I definitely didn’t see it coming and therefore I didn’t plan for it.  Feelings and frustrations surfacing, I didn't know what to do first, or even if could do anything at all.

As time moved on, it would of been easier to sit around feeling bad, looking for people to blame and complain to, rehashing what I could have done to make things happen differently, or what I would have done if only I had realized befor, or what other people should have done to help me.

These were all great options if I just wanted to maximize my misery and I would of had justification in doing so.   

I chose to deal and attempt to move on.  Moving on is something everyone has to do when something happens, the situation often improves when you move on.

Dealing with a bad situation is like dealing with grief, and I have gone through the same stages: shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger and bargaining, and so on.

I couldn't squash my emotions completely but I decided to accept what was happening, regardless of how I felt about it.  I needed to accept it, which was the only way to change how I felt.

As kids, we’re all about fair “I had that crayon first—it’s not fair.”

I was taught early on that life isn’t fair, but I still clung on to how I thought things should be.  My dad always told me that hard work should be rewarded and that Kindness should be reciprocated.  Things were not working out my way, I felt angry at the world.

Feeling outraged about life’s injustices wouldn't change the fact that things are often random and beyond our control. I was stuck in an unfair spiral, my wife said to me It is what it is.

Little in life is as horrible as it appears to be at first. Some things are challenging, but I have always believed that most situations can be solved.  I kept telling myself is this really the end of my world? And more importantly, how was I going to bounce back. 

I have become attached to the road I am on, I needed to form this attachment, it's helped me deal with everything in my path.  A hurdle will not obliterate my road because with my support I will get over the hurdles.  

Everyone will always remember the things I accomplished in Golf but I would like to be able to handle life’s challenges just as strongly. Life happens, and it isn’t always easy, I can bemoan it and fight it, or I can see dealing with life’s challenges as the most important challenge of all.

My condition will never go away, but I can work at being who I want to be no matter what life throws at me.

Winter is here - GOT Season 7 time!