2019

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How is it almost 2019 already?

The year has gone by pretty quickly.  


It is easy to take seconds, minutes and even hours for granted.  Time is on our side for the majority of the time... Until it's not. 


I have remained focused this year on my treatment, the next round, the next lock and clean, the next Kings appointment. 


This year we have spent time doing things as a family - My wife, My dog and me.  


I have worked hard at work and I am glad that I no longer crave approval from everyone.  


I have always been extremely competitive (my golf and karate before hand) and a deadline ticker.  


Since changing my job in December 2017, I feel more at peace and I have time to have treatment and rest and more importantly we have time as a family.  I am naturally able to knuckle down and get on,  so I start early to have some quiet time to get through some difficult bits and pieces so I can concentrate. When I walk out the door I am able to disconnect now.  Life is far too short to be too busy. I have spent too many years learning this the hard way.


Becoming poorly, needing time for treatment has allowed my life to have meaning.  Since having my line inserted I have emerged with more perspective.

I am excited for what this year brings for us as a family. I am looking forward to my next appointment at King's. I am looking forward to 2019. 



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  1. UnknownMonday, 31 December 2018 at 10:56:00 GMT

    I really hope that you have an amazing and wonderful 2019 Odette xx

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