Writing this blog....

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Along with photography and rekindling my love of reading, Writing has become a new love of mine.  

Writing this blog is actually the first piece of writing I have ever done.  

My blog is about self-expression, it was never about people reading it, it was always just about me expressing how I feel without having to look at anyone.  

Via my blog, I am showing myself, giving myself, my guards are down.  Everyone who stops by and reads even a single post can judge me and I am fine with that.  In everyday life and in my blog, I cannot control what others think of me or my words or even my experiences.  I am happy to let everyone have their thoughts about me... Their thoughts. My thoughts. My thoughts about their thoughts.

I have battled with my own personal thoughts  all my life, I am no longer scared of my thoughts, so why should I be scared of anyone elses?  I can see how my own thoughts were not necessarily true or false, helpful or unhelpful, positive or negative.  They just existed. I started to take me thoughts less and less seriously.  

Formless, uncontrollable energy, Fleeting and temporary, True and false, meaningful and meaningless. 

Like everything, this hasn't happened overnight, it has taken work and will take continuous work.  I am not my thoughts. My mind is more liberated.  I am no longer afraid of my thoughts. 

Through my blog, I hope to show that life is full of ups and downs but you can get through it, even shit like I've gone through. I am still here, for now.   Hopefully someone will gain strength from my strength.  Hopefully someone will focus on what they have and appreciate their life.  Hopefully someone will stop criticizing others just because they are different.  Hopefully someone will stop disempowering others with their own fears.  

I will never know if my blog actually has an impact.  I am willing to take a chance. I am willing to be wrong. I am willing to waste my time writing at the off chance that it does have an impact, that it does help, someone, anyone to carry on.  

I have no expectations, no pressures, no timeline for my blog.  Hopefully one line or one paragraph will matter to someone, one post will be valuable to someone.

I have nothing to fear, nothing to lose and will continue just being me.. 

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