Cycle of never ending anger...

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I feel that in life lately, there is so much to be angry about.  Yulin Dog Meat festival for instance recently nearly blew my brain clean out of my skull.  

Brexit


Jeremy Corbyn


Trump


I could just continue making a long list.  


My personal situation right now is utterly infuriating. 


Emotional and mental stress and physical limitations placed on me mean I am often in my own personal rage internally.  


Facing an uncertain future and the possibility of incredibly invasive treatments makes me feel a little anxious.  


I’m not going to lie - sometimes I am angry, and I have great difficulty directing and dealing with that anger so often it becomes misplaced.  

I'd rather let it all out and deal with the repurcussions than have it fester away inside me.  

I know 99.9% of this is to do with being in pain.  I act out in a negative manner as a result of my inner pain. Most people who look at me will not even realise the pain I am in, I don't expect them to understand. I struggle if I have to hold onto my anger, but I know it's human to act out when I am hurting.  

I don't condone my outbursts and I am making excuses, I am merely telling the truth.  I know that in letting go of the anger,  help myself and everyone around me because I am not letting it fester. 

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