Nothing is permanent

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In life nothing is permanent.

Nothing that I have today will last forever. 

Not my job, my house, or my car. 

Neither will the people who are closest to me and unfortunately neither will the people who vowed to never leave my side.

Life is short and we have a impending expiry date. 

Someday, sometime, we will be alone.  All these people will no longer be around me, friends, family and siblings.  

I've learnt recently from my wife on the way to her nans wake that is you expect nothing you have the chance to appreciate everything.  


No one is responsible for me or my life. 

No one is obligated to show me any affection or kindness. Even if they are the people I love, it doesn’t mean they must love me back.

I have learnt that everyone appreciates knowing they are appreciated, little things are often the big things. 

Those right infront of us get missed because we are so busy with work, relationships and flashy hobbies. 

As I have said in many posts, I am trying to work on so many parts of myself.  I am trying to learn to stop worrying about things that I really have no control over. 

I am learning to never take people for granted because one day all the sweet and kind gestures will be eaten up.  


“Smile big. Laugh often. Never take this life for granted.” ~Unknown

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