Approaching my Wedding Anniversary

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The moment I said, I do was the most wonderful moment of my whole life.  It happened, I married my best friend.  On the 14th May, we have been married two years, although in total we have been together nearly 20yrs now.  

In our marriage we ensure that we make time for each other, we try and have a family day on a Sunday and we also make time for external family.  


Life can be busy. Sometimes very busy, Okay, so life is busy, but we know that it will pass us by if we let it.  We believe as a couple that sometimes it’s worth taking five minutes to stop and talk to someone how may not talk to anyone else all day.  


As an individual, I believe that making time for others feels very satisfying.  I have been lucky enough to meet some incredible people the last few years, on social media and in real everyday life,  that have affected and influenced me greatly.  A couple have even changed my life for the better.  


We love family Sunday.  Whatever it is we do, a walk, a picnic, a castle, a new area, it doesn't matter to me, as long as we are together that is all that matters to me.  When I am grey and old, I want to look back and know that I have some truly great memories and experiences to treasure. 


I know I worry too much.  I worry too about alot of things, often the worry will make me restless.   I know I let other people’s opinions affect my actions and mood from time to time.  I am working on this.  


The last 8/9 years have taken their toll on us as a couple and before we got married in May 2016, I honestly spoke to Kim and said she was free to walk away because this wasn't what she signed up for.  At that point, I didn't even have my chest line but we knew things were becoming harder for me.  As a couple, we have made decisions together about our future and my future and we really do live as each and everyday is our last.  


Married life is important to me, I treasure my marriage and take it seriously and at nearly 20yrs together, I could not imagine getting old with anyone else.  


I am thankful for everything no matter how minor.  I enjoy every moment with my wife and Lindo and with my family, my little nephews and my friends.  I cherish every day, every smile, every small memory.  I will continue to seize everyday and act as if it's my last.  


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