What is life about?

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Why are we here? What is my purpose? What am I here on earth to achieve? So many questions but I do not have the answers.  The questions burn deep inside of me. 
The majority of my life’s journey so far has been about helping others.  As I have grown to know myself, I have discovered that I have a heart that wants the best for myself and for others.
It hasn't always been easy for me. I have spent a great deal of my life questioning why I am here and what my life is all about. I had been through loss and I unfortunately am in a lot of pain.  Enough is enough and I know I need to be different.  Little did I know that being different meant discovering myself and not simply changing my circumstances.
At school both primary and secondary, I was always helpful, but it was more about seeking validation back then and not for the difference I could make to any of my peers.  
Towards the end of secondary school, I started to learn who I was and why I was behaving the way I did. I would often be so angry with myself for doing things for other people that I really didn’t want to do.  I am still learning about myself, for those of you reading this blog post who have read my others, you will know that I will be learning about me for a long time yet. 

I spent years angry at myself for never saying no when that I was all I really wanted to do.  I was continually seeking validation and wanted to be liked.  I knew that I could say no but I has been saying no to the wrong person for so long.  That person was me, I needed to change this no to a yes.



The more I gave to me, the more I was able to give to others, and the more I then received.  When we give, we always receive.  I learned to give to others from a place of inner strength. I gave curiosity and compassion instead of frustration. I listened and therefore was able to be present for others.  I appreciated people for who they were, not for the behaviours they displayed.

In life pain is inevitable; suffering is optional.
Each of us come into this world with infinite potential and then become conditioned to live to society’s expectations. This is the way it is, and yet we have the potential to change it.
We can have such doubt about ourselves.  Society may limit our potential, but these are self-imposed doubts.  When we believe in ourselves, we show up differently in the world.

Everyone has a form of talents that makes this world a richer place.   I was always taught that you can achieve almost anything you want if you believe in yourself and you put your heart and mind to it. This level of self-belief allows you to know that you will be okay, no matter what happens.
I believe my true purpose in life is to give my life away to others, and that in return I will receive happiness, fulfillment, and meaning.  

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