Unconditional Love

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Love is an incredibly strange and beautiful thing.
From a young age, I believed I knew how to love. I mean, I told my teddy bear that I loved him because he kept me safe at night.
At Primary school, it dawned on me, that I seemed to only love the people and things that would give me something in return and that would allow life to go on the way that I wanted it to.

I never truly felt love, a love that was unconditional and all encompassing until I was an adult.

There is never a day or two that goes by where I do not tell those close to me that “I love you” at some point during the day.  
Unconditional love does not come easy and it is something learned and practiced.  I know that it is through the toughest times, the happiest times and every single obstacle of my life that I have discovered new ways of loving.
My parents, my grandparents and my wife have taught me that to love unconditionally is to love with absolutely no boundaries whatsoever.  I love my nephews in this way, Elliott is 3 and Amos was only born at the end of November and already he holds an incredibly special place in my heart with Elliott. 




Even when unconditional love hurts, the love is never failing, it stays on its path, never faulters and never changes. 

There have been times in my life when loving someone else seems nearly impossible because of the difficult situations that I have found myself in. There are times when I habe said harsh things to people I love just because things were not going my way or just because they made me unhappy.  In these situations,  I found myself attempting to put provisions on love.  I some how attached it to how others were acting and whether they reciprocate the feelings I gave to them.  I attached it to the circumstances and emotions that went on in those single moments. 

Over the years, especially when I was younger as I have mentioned in previous blog posts, I always held back, fearful of getting hurt, afraid even.  I had the opportunities back then to just love.  Love because I was grateful for what someone done for me. Love because somebody needed me, needed a friend to lean on during their own struggles.  Love even when it was very difficult, even when my mind told me that I shouldn’t.  Love by looking beyond people’s faults, struggles and whatever pain and hardships that life may bring. 

I learnt that when we love and treat each other with the utmost care and attention, the little things that bother us seem far less bothersome. 

I wonder what the world would be like if we all stopped looking to get something in return and we all just loved unconditionally, just for the happiness and inner peace it could bring us?

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