My Subconscious Mind

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My subconscious mind, I believe is like a computer’s hard drive.
It saves whatever information I feed it, without any bias. It does not discriminate between useful information and trash information and believe me, I have a lot of trash in my head.

I have learnt that my subconscious mind learns through repetition, over my life to-date it has been fed the same information multiple times, so it continually overwrites until the information gets etched in.  When I was small and I was learning to ride a bike, at first, like everyone I found it incredibly hard to balance but I continually practised with my parents and I started to be able to maintain balance for longer periods of time.  Finally, I could just get on and cycle off.  Repetition meant that my subconscious mind picked up what it took for me to maintain balance. 

I have learnt over the years that some information is hard to erase because once my subconscious mind learns something it continually falls back on this information whenever it is required.  

Once information is fed into my subconscious mind, and it is repeated enough times, it gets etched into my mind and becomes extremely difficult to erase, erasing requires massive effort.  I know this is exactly the reason why bad habits are so difficult to break.  

Subconscious mind patterns are called subconscious because they are below my level of consciousness. In other words, I am not consciously aware of them.  I bite my nails, I always have, nobody else in my family does.  I am not even aware that I am doing it.  I am now, as I am older becoming aware within a minute or so that I am doing it.  

Physical habits are easier, obviously to spot than mental habits.  I have found practicing awareness has really helped me. In my day to day life, I am often completely lost in my thoughts, I have been practising trying to detach myself but it is very hard, detachment can be used apparently to rid my mind of negative thoughts and replace them with positive ones. 


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