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Today, I was called darling by a young lad who works in a coffee shop that we often visit, who would not stop staring and smiling at me.  He then awkwardly smirked, like usual I could not get away from the till fast enough. 

Inside I screamed at the darling part.  

People will always have commentary about us, trust me, but while everyone has an opinion, not everyone has a clue.  We must be extremely careful who we let give us feedback.  I have made this mistake countless times in the past and let other people's opinions cloud my vision of myself even if I didn't even respect the person giving me that opinion. 

The lad in the coffee shop talks to me staring at my chest, a lot of people do this.  Just because they are a person with eyes I allow their remark to dig deep into my psyche.  Deep down, I am incredibly sensitive. One unchecked opinion can cause me to feel ungrounded and unable to think clearly for myself, but ultimately, this is who I am, this is my life. I’m the only one living behind my eyes, so I am the only one who can and should take ownership of my decisions.


Since May, I have done a lot of personal work on my life because I needed too, personal situations meant I had too.  Since having my chest line fitted in late summer, I have decided to create a set of requisites to better decide whose opinions I will let in.  In my golf, I have always known that hard work pays off and the work that scares us the most is always the hardest to work through. 

Looking great isn't the point, today we all live in a world of endless options, it’s more important to look like me.  

To me it is vital to get my criteria straight for whose input I let in. It is very easy to find myelf waking up one day and not recognising myself because I fell into other people's ideas of who I am instead of my own.  If I am going to allow someone to be a competent mirror for me, I have heavily worked on this 

For example - do I admire this person? Does this person even have a positive vision of themselves? Do I love the way this individual sees me and who I aspire to be? Are they someone who supports me and inspires me to rise to every opportunity for personal growth?

Most importantly, I trust most, those people that surround me that hold me in an accepting light, and have my best interests at heart.  I have carefully and consciously selected the people who I actively allow to influence me, and whose judgments I take to heart.  As I am deeply sensitive, I am on high alert.  I know I may be extremely vulnerable to molding myself to those around me and what they need.  I know I am the company I keep.  I am the opinion of those closest to me.



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