Family Life

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Family are a vital part of life.  For 99.9% of the time they are your everything and you love them but for the rest of the time you cannot stand them.  In the end, family is family. 

I believe, I am just like my dad, in both positive and negative ways.  I believe our downside is that we have the ability to become angry, we can be very quiet and we try to please everyone then resent others for their own imbalance.

I used to blame my snappy behaviour on my dad growing up, at school and at work.  Like blaming him was an excuse.  On closer self-reflection, I found myself getting angrier and angrier that I was like my dad and becoming more like him.  My father is fantastic in everyway, he has always been there for me always, he is great but everytime I lost my temper or became overly frustrated, Internally I would blame my dad.  Accepting no accountability for my actions that led me to this actual state. 

My dad was waking me up to own my anger and helping me see how it was also of benefit and service to me.

I can sting with my words in a heartbeat, that doesn't come from my dad. 

I have found it incredibly hard to look myself in the mirror and see aspects of myself that I have always denied.  I had to take responsibility for my own anger.

Anger helps me take action; the fire within me motivates me to go after what I really want. I have tunnel vision and block out anything or anyone that distracts me on my path.  I don’t need to fight my occasional anger; I just need to understand it.  Over the years, the more self-aware I have become, the less my anger bubbled to the surface.

Certain family members, even extended members can often seriously push our buttons.  I think this happens because it helps us grow, it teaches us that certain areas of our personality needs help or attention or understanding, maybe even healing.  For example, it takes alot for me to get rubbed up the wrong way by a family member. 

I truly and honestly believe that being born into our current individual families is not accidental or at all random.  Every moment even the challenging ones are opportunities for us to grow, from this base we learn how to be more empathetic, loving, confident, trusting, jealous, angry and even impatient. 
Play fighting between my brother, sister and me taught me to stand up for myself and for them.  I had the confidence and belief in myself to do so which was instilled into me at home.

My parents, my sister and my brother have helped mould me, helped me become the person I am today.  Our families help us grow.  Each individual member helps us learn something, the trick is understanding what that something is.

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